Helloooo Creativity.

I decided not to post this along with my spider-rant... ugh I hate spiders...

(To the tune of  "For the First Time in Forever" from Frozen, if you wanna follow along with my brain)

There's something wrong here, 

yes I'd say... 

all of these voices 

just won't go away. 

Who knows just how much pressure I can take? 

For years I've tried to just stay sane, 

fighting the demons in my brain... 

convinced they all want me to go away! 

I have actual real-live people, 

who love me just the same, 

but deep inside I fear it's all a game! 

But for the first time in forever, 

I've got meds, I've got love. 

For the first time in forever, 

I'm aware I'm not alone. 

Don't know if I'm insane yet, 

because they're still right here by my side! 

But for the first time in forever, 

I really am alright. 

I can't believe they love me... oh!

What if they're actually staying?

I can't imagine that life at all

friends that don't leave when I hit the wall

people who really love me just for me!

But now it seems they're all right here

willing to help me face my fears

They mean it when they say I'll be okay

But then the voices come around

and a sudden panic's gaining ground

Because it seems this always ends the same...

But for the first time in forever

my family understands

For the first time in forever

they're here, holding my hand

And I know that this is foreign

to be counted among them all

But for the first time in forever

they hear me when I call

Don't let them in...

Don't let them see...

Keep your distance

stay away from me...

Conceal

Not real...

I know it isn't so...

But I still fear

they'll all just up and go

But this love isn't the same

It's real, it's not a game

So I'll do my best

to let them see my pain

Cause for the first time in forever

They really want to help (Don't let them in, don't let them see)

They're really in for this ride (Keep your distance, stay away from me)

I know I could lose it (Conceal...)

by pushing them away (Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know...)

But for the first time in forever...

For the first time in forever

I really think I'll be okay.

Yeah

That was as cheesy as it looked on paper. Now I'm going to have to record it. Haha

Peace, Love, and Bulletproof Marshmallows

Ronnie